Free food and the big hurdle

If there's something I like more than food, it's free food. Hence my trip tonight. At about 6 my friend BHJ called me up and told me there was free pizza at the local bowling alley. I'm not the biggest fan of the bowling alley bar- there are a lot better places to go and c'mon it's a BOWLING ALLEY BAR- but free food is usually enough to sway me. So naturally, I saddled up.

I got there around 6:20, and met BHJ who told me our other friend Trojangirl and her boyfriend Baldwin were gonna join us in a bit. We went into the bar and ordered drinks, tall Great Lakes Oktoberfests with which to wash down the delicious free pizza. We didn't see any cheesy comestibles sitting around though so I asked the bartender if this free pizza thing was happening. No such luck :-( We all instead went to a Max and Ermas, where despite having to pay for the food, served some nice cookies.

I thought I should bring this up in my first real posting. Theres a huge roadblock in the way of me meeting people and trying to get a date; I already have feelings for someone, my friend The Pyrokinetic. These aren't feelings I really want to act upon, or even entertain at all: She lives further away than I like, and shoved me hard enough into the friend zone to break something important. It started this past spring, I went back to school to visit her and some other people and wound up catching feelings like a disease. I told her about it pretty soon after. We went for a while flirting online pretty much whenever we'd chat, but all through that time she had an on-again-off-again relationship with another guy who she'd routinely complain to me about (take that, balls!). When I went to Chicago over the summer in part to visit her for her birthday she and the guy were 'on' and she was practically waving him in front of my face -well from my perspective anyway, I admit it might've just seemed like that since I liked her. Interesting side note; after everyone fell asleep or passed out at The Pyrokinetic's birthday party he fuckin dumps her and leaves her in tears, which I'd warned her would happen sooner or later.

Roses are red
Violet's are blue
Karma's a bitch
And so are you

Ahem, sorry. Anyway she eventually comes to Ohio to visit, but she cuts it short (without letting me know before coming here) citing family troubles- her mom's gone nuts and she wasn't sure if her parents were going to stay together -and she needed to be home. Instead she brings her friend from Columbus back to Chicago, and while I'm sitting at home worrying about her family shit, I hear from her a week later saying how awesome he is and what a super-fun week she's had with the guy. Later on she visits Columbus again, looking for an apartment, and happens to be there one weekend when I'm down having a short vacation with BHJ and another friend, Red who's an OSU alum. We make a plan Saturday afternoon to meet up that night. But then time comes, Red BHJ and I are at the bar watching the game waiting for her to show up, she texts me to let me know she's bailing and also that instead of do what we'd intended to do I should jump ship and go find her in some other bar in the area. Fuck that! Why the hell should I have to chase her around Columbus?

Between all that, I think it's safe to say that even as a friend The Pyrokinetic's made it pretty clear she doesn't give a shit. I don't put a lot of stock in friends who take me about as seriously your average mime, take my time for granted and offer me next to none of theirs. If not for the fact that she's hot, I'dve recognized this pattern a while ago. See, I've had feelings before for people who clearly didn't deserve them, but usually I figure that part out after the feelings have dried up. Wish I could say that were the case here. My friend Red's advice? Forget her. That's the gameplan. Easier said than done.